I'm here again... Wow... 2 in one month it's amazing! Today was a good day we went over Brian's brother's house and had dinner there. It was nice, and we were trying to finalize plans for Thanksgiving---- I know it seems really early but we just needed to talk about who's house it would be at and what each of us would do. We decided to just go shopping together and split the cost this way one family isn't paying for the whole thing. I am soo happy we are as a family communicating more and It makes me sooo happy. We've had some issues in the past and they are all getting resolved. It was just about not understanding each other, and communication not being open. Things are soo much better now. I really feel like we are going to be that close family I always wanted to have with them. November is going to be such a busy month. Our family has sooo many birthdays in November... Emily, Brian, my Father in law, my niece Heather, my Great nephew Nicholas and my nephew Jimmy... it's really WOW!! My mom's birthday was in November too. Such a busy month.. not to mention Thanksgiving so I'm just feeling good that we talked and got things in some order early. What else... well I've become somewhat addicted to this game on facebook called Farmville.. it's kinda like you built this farm and you have to harvest your fields and take care of animals. I really like it.. and it helps when the boredom strikes. I still am enjoying Facebook, but I've learned soo much about people... most of the people that I've Friended from my past I really like. I enjoy their updates and think that I would get along with them if I were to meet them in "REAL" life, others whom I even had strong relationships with back in HS, and I've realized that If I didn't know them before I would NOT LIKE THEM at all now. Politically, or personality wize I just find them obnoxious. It's funny--- you remember them one way and found out that they aren't that person at all, but because you were young and they hadn't developed their ideals yet. When you're young your relationships are based on looks or feelings alone. But when you get older you base them more on important qualities... I don't know if I am explaining myself well but it's just how I've felt about some of my former "real" friends. I didn't think of them the way that they are today.... I still thought of them the innocent way of my youth but now getting to know them that's all gone. They have turned into people whose character I don't like. It's kinda sad to know that I would not like them if I had the chance to be their friend and I would not really wanna be. But luckily that is the minority and not the majority of people I've reconnected with. Most of them are really cool and I'm happy that I've developed even a small relationship with thru Facebook. Oh well, I'm kinda sad the weekend is over. I really enjoy being with my family. I especially like the extra time I get with Emily and Brian. Sometimes I feel like the week is just one routine after another.. It's nice to just have the lazy days of the weekend. I don't like being bored but I like the non-chalant quality of the weekend too.

Fall is here, Christmas is around the corner.

Hello.. I'm updating on here, it's amazing I know. I guess I just feel like writing I was kinda eager about it. Thinking that I would write this and that.. now lets hope I don't forget. I guess I'll start off with Emily because well she's the most important part anyway... always. She's doing sooo good in 3rd grade. She came home the other day and said... "Mommy I'm doing excellent in 3rd grade." and I could not help but to smile. She's sooo cute, and ofcourse right. She's gotta all A's on her tests. Her daddy and I are very proud. She has decided she wants to be Hannah Montana for Halloween. I am thrilled, cause I get to help her with the costume. We aren't buying a store one but rather putting one together. I bought this really cool GOLD jacket that I've modified some to fit her (it's was a size small juniors) so it was a little big on her and I think it's gonna look really good. Then we got her some pants, and borrowed some boots from Madeline. It's looking really cool so far!! What else.. I went to Christmas Tree shop tonight with Danielle.. we had sooo much fun!! We really enjoyed just relaxing and not having any of the kids with us... so we got to take our time. Infact we were in there for so long.. we didn't realize how long and were shocked to realize it was quarter to ten @ night when we left.. YIKES. It was awesome. Got some cool things and a really cool photo album scrapbook for Emily that we can put her school pics in/ and art work and etc up until 6th grade anyway. I LOVE IT! I spent almost $60.00 so I was like YIKES.. but I didn't feel too bad cause Dan spend double.. hehe. IT was fun like I said. Still doing facebook and I still like it but @ times I find it annoying. You open yourself up a little to being hurt some. I question if the friendships I'm developing on there are at all real. I guess I mean do they care about me really or am I just a person that they don't really care about. I'm not sure I'm enjoying it as much as I used to. It's hard to email some one and not get a response back--- my skin is thin and it hurts my feelings a little. I'm wondering if perhaps I'm not cut out for a system of social interaction such as it. It's hard for me to explain myself with out you knowing me. If you knew me it would make sense. I tend to be VERY honest with people but also care what they think tooooo much. The combination can lead to hurt feelings, mostly mine because other so called "friends" don't really care. Been feeling that way about someone that I actually considered one of my real friends on their, so it's just been a bad week for facebook this week. Also I've had a headache on and off for a few days in a row and it's just annoying. It feels much better right now.. maybe perhaps that helped me decide to write a blog. Ofcourse perhaps I've been getting the headaches cause I"m a little stressed. Worrying about Brian... his next surgery is on the 26th of this month. I know it's gonna be OKAY but you know. oKay... Well I'm feeling a little tired and I guess since it's almost 1 am tht makes sense.. so I guess I'll go now. I'm really going to TRY and update a little more often!! Anyway PEACE OUT!!