Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Emily's "Super Fun" Pen & Pencil Holders!

Emily's 25 HOMEMADE Pencil & Pen Holders for a class project in Excel. It was teaching about product development, marketing and sales. They are holding a Mini-trade fair today at school. :) I think she did a great job!!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Well hello there..

I forgot my mom's birthday.. it was November 19th. I completely forgot it, I was soo busy getting ready for Thanksgiving, Emily's birthday & my mother in law's visit that it totally slipped my mind. I always remember it, I usually write up something on my facebook page about how much I miss her and how i can't believe that it's been such such amount of time since she's been gone. The truth is I do miss her so much, just that day I was sooo busy & stressing that I didn't realize that it was her day! I felt bad about it when I remembered it, but I still had things to do so I couldn't really beat myself up to hard about it. But my heart hurt alittle from forgetting it. Did that mean I was a "bad" daughter? Cause I would have said something like... " Today is my mom's birthday.. she would have been 62 today! God I miss her, I hope she knows how much I love her and that she is watching in amazement at Emily & feeling as proud as I am. Mom.. I love you! Happy Birthday! :)" I should have wrote something like that, so when I remembered that I forgot i felt bad, like my mom would be upset. I know it's silly, but I still want her to know how much i loved her & still love her! SO i was really feeling quite bad about it. Anyway.. the day after I "forgot" her, I was cleaning out the oven. We had self-cleaned it but I had to take a sponge and wipe it all down and wipe the racks inside.. well when I was done.. i went about doing something else.. after a little while, I just happened to glance at my arm and I saw this image made somehow out of the drippings of the dirt off the sponge! To me it was immediately clear that it was an angel & I knew it was some how my mom. The other funny thing is that over the course of the last month I had referred to trying to see Jesus in things.. i even made reference on facebook to "an odd shape in my potato chip, but that try as I might, I didn't see Jesus or the Virgin Mary so I figured it was ok to eat.lol" So it was kind of a joke & it was exactly the kind of thing I could see my mom doing, to reference some silly thing I said...the thing is though it totally made me feel better and isn't that what mothers do? Comfort their children & make them feel better, even when they've been gone for 11 years, somehow she still managed to say, "it's Okay" So thanks mom! I love you, keep figuring out ways to let me know once in a while that you're still around!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Sunday, November 6, 2011

A great "lil' family weekend"

HI, I had a great weekend. Didn't do much but it was just a nice calm family weekend. Emily & I had some great talks this weekend, and some quiet sweet moments that are really the BEST ones you can have. We had a great talk about the songs that her daddy & I sang to her when she was a baby especially when she was still in the NICU for those 6 months. Those songs were how we were able to provide Emily with a little stimilation when she was in the isolette. A way for us to feel close to her. I would sing, "you are my sunshine", "the itsy bitsy spider" and "the abc song". Her daddy would sing, "over the rainbow" & "Little Miss Magic" It was sweet to remember this, a pleasant moment from such a difficult time for us all. Also we played a game with her of "treasure hunt" where we would give her clues and make her "solve" them in order to find a small treasure at the end. She LOVED this! We played it on Saturday and she had such fun, we played again on Sunday! Emily & I ended the night today by watching the "Halo" awards on Teen Nick. It was Emily's idea that we watch it, and I'm so glad we did... its an award show that gives awards to "average" teens who have made differences in their communities... It was very inspiring & after it, Emily & I had a lil' discussion about the show and bullying and how we can help others too. All in all it was a great weekend. Brian had to do a lot of work cause he's going a way next week on business and must finish this project he's working on so it kind of forced us to stay home, but it turned out to be a great weekend. A slow down weekend.. and it was GREAT!! What could make it better is if the Steelers win, I hope so, cause that would make Brian HAPPY!! Anyway.. I'm feeling soo much love right now, and it inspired me to write a little on here. Much love to you too! :)