I am thankful God...
For Emily
For Mom
For Brian
For Fernando
For Family
For Friends
For forgiving me
For forgiving them


I am hoping God....
For health
For happiness
For Healing
For Joy
For forgiveness
For love
For Action
For Strength


I am wondering God....
Why Pain
Why trouble
Why now
Why him
Why me
Why her
Why them
Why not


I am afriad God....
Not enough
Not doing
Not praying
Not worthy
Not feeling
Not being
Not seeing
Not showing

MAJOR STRESS!

I am feeling major stress tonight. Well first, it's like flippn' 95 degrees out and our air conditioner has decided NOT to work. SO JOY... what the F*CK!! Also, my husband is going to the doctors tomorrow and I'm worried about him and how it goes. He's been really really tired for a long time and everyone thought it was just his sleep apnea but then he got a CPAP machine and he was still tired.... so okay more test..... then he was diagnosed with Low testosterone and the medicine he was given for that didn't work and so now he has to see a specialist and I am just worried because I love him and I just want him to feel better and be fine. Also, my husband's Ireland trip is soon and he'll be gone and I'll miss him alot!! My sister is suppose to visit this week and now we have no air conditioning. I mean I know people LIVED without AIR CONDITIONING. But I DON'T CARE..... I'm HOT and IRRITABLE!! I'm so jealous of rich people who don't have to worry about anything materialistic . It's like okay we need this... no problem... money's in the bank. I mean I know that I am a lot better off then some and I do appreciate all that I have. But there is still that green eyed monster who wishes that it was easier. It's like 12:04 am and I should be asleep but I can't because I'm worried. So maybe I'll go eat a chocolate donut and think about all that we need to get done... oh yeah and our dog needs a license and the township sent us a " REMINDER" that it needs to be done or ELSE! Like a need another OR ELSE in my life. I'm sorry I know I'm whining and complaining and just downright in a pissy mood and I'm sorry. Life is hard---- and that really SUCKS sometimes.

WRONG TO HATE? OKAY I DISLIKE PREZ BUSH IMMENSELY

Okay.. I know that usually this blog is a lot of fluff.. I mean it's about my family so it's important to me. But I don't usually go too deep into serious issues like politics, and such. But I've been hearing all this talk about Keith Olberman's commentary on Bush. So I finally watched it... it's just incredible. He voiced so eliquotely what so many of us have been feeling. WOW... if you haven't seen it... please I beg you to watch it on youtube. It's remarkable. I usually can't talk to much or long about George Bush because well to be frank... I get really pissed off. I HATED when he got elected and I knew right away he would not be a good president. I was however one of those people that right after 9-11, gave him a little bit of rope. Considering what our country was going through.... we needed someone and I was willing atleast momentarily willing to follow our leader. Even if "HE" was the leader. Well it didn't last long and I regret the little bit of faith I had put into him at that time. He choked himself with that rope we all gave him at the time. When I think about all of our soldiers that have been killed, or disabled I am so very very sad! And the war just continues and more are dying then every before. So sad. I can't wait until 08' and we get a new president. I hope it's a democrat but I'll take anyone at this point. ANYONE as long as his name isn't BUSH!!

Happy 4th of JULY!!!!!

Happy 4th of July Peeps!!! Okay I don't actually have peeps but I wanna be cool like that!! Ha!! This morning when we woke up we had no plans for the 4th.....kinda sad! But then my equally bored slightly more ambitious Aunt Barbara invited us over for a BBQ-- okay maybe I have peeps but they are family peeps-I'm not sure they count. So that was at 10:54am and I decided to make potato salad... but we are suppose to be there at 1 pm and I don't even have any of the stuff to make it. So my wonderful husband went to the store and got me potatoes, mayo, eggs and celery. Making potato salad takes a flippin' long time!! So at 1:20 we left to go... okay now we are on are way, with 5 pounds of potato salad and people probably are already eating and we have all this potato salad! But we call my aunt and no they haven't eaten. Good becuase that is A LOT of potato salad. Anyway, we had a really nice time at my aunt's.... family and food!! All you need for a fun BBQ!! Emily ofcourse was so happy and she played wiffle ball with her daddy, she performed a little show were she sang the "Wonder Pets" theme song..... cute stuff! Thank you Aunt Barbara... YOU ROCK!! Okay, well I'm gonna go and enjoy the rest of my 4th of July with my family! Happy 4th everyone! ..... Oh yeah, Emily hates fireworks so we are NOT doing that. Unless we want a screamin child!! No Thanks.

Side note: Emily made that American flag for a school project!!