Merry Christmas to ALL!

Hum Drums.... Don't know why?

I've been feeling a little depressed lately. I don't know why really, just having a hard time getting in the spirit this year for Christmas. Maybe I'm missing my mom a little more than usual. I don't know. I feel a little bit better tonight then I did yesterday. I'm listening to Bing Crosby... maybe that's helping. I also went out shopping with Danielle and had a nice time... maybe that's helping. We decorated ginger bread cookies today... maybe that's helping. Maybe I'm just ( like Brian reminded me to do ) thinking of Emily and how much joy she gets out of Christmas and it is bringing me out of my funk. I hope. I want to feel like I usually do... that Christmas Magic feeling. The feeling you get when you look at twinkle lights on a tree. The feeling of listening to Christmas Music- the peace it gives you. The memories that you get out of Christmas music has always been one of the things that fills me with happiness. I WILL BE HAPPY. I WILL BE HAPPY for my daughter, myself, and my family. I WILL BE HAPPY AND FEEL THE JOY OF THIS WONDERFUL TIME OF YEAR. I WILL... THAT's IT! Good, now that that is handled. Let me just fill you in on what else has been going on. I am mostly done all my shopping-- just a few little loose ends to finish up. stocking stuffers and the likes. I need gifts for people who we got gift cards for.... I always like to give a little present with a gift card to make it seem a little more personable. I really hate giving gift cards! But sometimes that is all they ask for and I don't want to get them something they aren't going to like. ANyway... Now I need to finish up our Christmas cards. I know it's the 21st now and they still aren't out but that's life. :) HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO YOU AND YOURS!!

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Hello, Emily is home from school today because she is not feeling well. I don't think it's anything serious just a winter cold. She has been having a runny nose for a while but this morning she just seemed really tired and kept coughing. I think she may have had a fever too but I could not find the thermomemoter(sic) to take her temperature. So I decided it was better to be safe then sorry. SHe's watching TV right now and I just gave her pill (epilepsy) and some medicine for her cold. So I decided to write for a little while. The best thing for her is to probably rest anyway. We are doing pretty good with our shopping. We usually don't have this much done this early. We still have quite a bit to do but atleast it's better than usual. Yeah. Okay, I wanted this book called " An imcomplete Education" because I have always regretted the limited education I had. I want to feel like I have a mild knowledge on more subjects and events. so I asked for this book. I started reading it and it annoyed me from the get-go. Well first it is all about what you didn't learn in college, as if the only people who are concerned about learning more are people who went to college. It completely rubbed me the wrong way. Okay, so I didn't have the resources to go to college, that doesn't mean that I have no interest in bettering myself as a human being. I found it very insulting. I guess. Oh well, It annoyed me. But I'll still read the book. I hope!! Christmas time is so stressful. I've been trying not to be stressed becuase well I keep reminding myself that we are ahead of last year. Our Christmas tree was a total disaster. We usually have a fake tree, I like real trees better but they are such a pain. So we had this fake tree. When we went to put it up 3/4 of the lights would not work after multiple different attempts to get it too work and changing fuses and wires and such we gave up. We threw it to the curb just for our own sanity. SO we went out and bought a cheap replacement and when we got it home and put it up realized how shitty it looked so okay we went and returned it the next day. Then we decided okay we will go look for a better fake tree and realized that they are really EXPENSIVE so after poor Brian went to like 5 stores, he came to the decisions that we will just get a real tree this year and look after christmas when the fakes go on sale. I was thinking the same thing, so atleast we were on the same page. SO we went out on Sunday and bought a real tree. I decorated it on Sunday, Emily helped a little bit! But mostly I did it myself. Brian is not into decorating the tree at all. Oh well I am very critical of the tree every year. I stress and try so hard to make it perfect. It really isn't fun so this year I tried hard to just accept how it looked and I think it looks pretty. Yesterday I made a paper chain. I put it on the tree. It looks old fashion--- I like that. Anyway so we are "FINALLY" done decorating and I am VERY HAPPY about that. Yeah. Okay I"m tired of writting so I guess I'll stop. Happy HOlidays!! :)

Much better the 2nd Time Around

Round 2 Christmas shopping with Danielle. Much better. I actually have Brian pretty much done except for the "BIG" gift. I haven't figured out what to get him. But whatever was able to get ALOT done so I feel better about that. I'm working today around 11 so I can't write for tooo long. I have so much to do around the house but I'm not really feeling like doing any of it. Emily loves school so much she makes me smile. She still gets Giddy when the bus comes. We are SO LUCKY. I hope she is always this enthusiastic(sic) ***SUCK SUCK SUCK AT SPELLING*** about school. I wish I would have been then I would not SUCK SUCK SUCK at SPELLING. perhaps. Anyway, even though I got Brian's shopping pretty much done, We still have ALOT of people to buy for and it's making me a little STRESSED when I think about it. I am going out shopping with my Aunt on Thursday or Friday. So hopefully I can get some more done then. Anyway, still don't have our tree decorated or our Xmas lights up. We really need to get on top of that. It still the first week in Dec so it's okay. We just do them this weekend. I hope. Anyway, I better go and get my shower. I'll try to write more later. Peace!!

Lunch with Santa

Emily's school had a lunch w. Santa and a kiddie gift shop today from 11-2. So Emily REALLY wanted to go again this year, so we did. She had a blast but would NOT look at Santa. Whenever she is REAL excited about something she doesn't want to LOOK directly at it. But she still enjoyed herself quite a bit. Oh yes, and she did FANTASTIC on her 1st marking period report card. She got all A's. Well actually all O's since they don't give out A's anymore. O stands for Outstanding. I don't understand why they don't just keep it the same. A, B, C, D and F like it was when I was a kid. Seems much better to me. But whatever. We were so proud of her. Miss M (Emily's teacher) seemed wonderful at the parent teacher conference. She seemed to "get" Emily. And we like that alot. She understands how smart she is and also what areas she still needs help with. We felt like we were "ALL" on the same page and that was really nice. Here is a picture of Emily w. Santa today. She said, " He doesn't SOUND like Santa" I said, " Maybe he has a sore throat." :) Peace.