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Hello Out there, I just got Emily out of the bath and we are waiting for her hair to dry and then she has to go to bed. So I told her she could play in her room until then and I figure I'll try to squeeze in a quick blog. Since i haven't written anything in 6 days. Well that isn't actually true. I wrote two blogs but didn't post them and then just deleted them because I decided I didn't like them. ONe was about how people could make friends so easily when they are children and how it gets harder and harder as you grow up. Why is that? And the other one I can't remember. Quick Quiz--- what movie did this quote come from..... " Blane, his name is Blane, that's a major appliance not a name" Okay... last night I watched "Pretty In Pink" I LOVE that movie!!! I didn't go to bed til after 2 am!!! It is one of my all time favorites. It touches on all those things that almost everyone remembers from HS. I remember wanting so badly to fit-in, and never ever feeling like I did. I felt alot like Andie did in the movie. I even had a semi-popular boyfriend...my 1st love. I remember the insecurity I felt and the embarressment too whenever I was around his friends. Being from the wrong side of the tracks.. per say. Highschool was torture... I imagine it still is. I think that is why teens now can still relate to that movie. Anyway, Brian is still in Ireland. He's having a blast. I usually talk to him or get an email atleast once a day. I'm missing him and am happy he comes home on Thursday!! I can't wait to see him and hug him!! Okay, it's after 9pm in NJ, I better go and put Emily to sleep. We are going to FUNPLEX tomorrow... never been I'll let you know how it goes. It's like a family fun center with rides and an arcade and stuff. Hope there are things Emily wants to do... Okay well goodnight. :) Peace.

My name is Missy and I am a BLOGGER.

I am always so impressed with people who have talents. As I seem to have none. I mean I am a good/decent person, a loving mother and a faithful wife but I am one of those people that would love to be naturally talented at something. Is there such a thing? I think so, some things come really simple to some people and sure I know that you could work at something and get good at it. But I am not really talking about that kind of talent. I mean people who just "ARE" Artist or "ARE" athletic. They didn't really have to practice I mean sure they do and they get even better but they don't really HAVE too. You know. I am so jealous of those people. I use to buy/ask for all these things so I could try to find something that I was "naturally" talented at. Like I asked for an art easil, becuase I do enjoy painting and creating. I just got really frustrated because it did not come easy to me. I mean I tried briefly and did a few very mediocre/pathetic paintings.... that I would not even hang up in my home for total fear of embarrassment. My husband has always tried to encourage me and ofcourse bought me this very nice easil and now it sits in the closet collecting dust. Which again, guess what? Makes me feel guilty. I reminder of my failure. Also tried scrapbooking, drawing, crocheting, needlepoint, etc... nothing stuck. And I am left with the materials to again remind me of my short comings. So now, my newest venture..... blogging. Hey, it's something... maybe it is here for me and those like me to create even if for themselves alone. I honestly don't care if anyone sees my blog or if they do see it, even like it, because to me this blog matters and gives me a feeling of accomplishment and that is what I have longed for in my other endeavers so I feel mildly contend and in some ways proud that atleast I have found an outlet for my creativity even if it's not Hemingway.... it is "my"writings and occasionally I am proud of a sentence or two that I come up with. It's not often but there are some moments of cleverness atleast in my own mind. I'm not saying I am talented at writing. I am just saying that it is giving me something and I enjoy what it gives me and I am thankful for it--- and it was FREE. No guilt and that is a very good thing.

Blog on Blog

Okay a confession, when I'm bored and been that alot lately... I just randomly check out other people's blogs--- so scandalous ( It's better for my ego-- then saying pathetic ). Just to see what other people are blogging about. Okay, there is such an array of blogs and reasons for blogging. It's quite interesting... I mean there are the bloggers who blog to share with family and friends about what is going on in their lifes, parents who blog as if their newborn is the blogger ( I'm adam-- I'm 2 weeks old, my mommy and daddy really love me....... ) Okay personally I think that is weird but that is just my opinion and it doesn't really matter. Their are the artist bloggers, who's talents are on display, the teenage bloggers whose parents are obviously "not" reading their blogs, nice teenage bloggers whose parents "could be" reading their blogs, the celebrity blogger, the "regular" persons' celebrity blog bloggers, the addict bloggers (drugs, drinking and etc), the recovery blogger( recovering from sickness, illness or addiction), the Porn blogger.... ( self explantory), the party bloggers, the travel bloggers, the writer bloggers, the political bloggers, the "I just moved to a new place" bloggers, the " this is my opinion" bloggers, the joke bloggers, the mobile bloggers- ( they just put up pics from cell phones) and so many more. I'm not sure where my blog would fall. Probably " BORING BLOGGERS"!!! Ha. Ha. But anyway.. This is my blog about blogs and I don't really know why I wrote it but since I did--- I guess you can read it.

An Irish Blessing.....

To my family,my friends & stranger friends... I truly hope this blessing reaches you.


May the road rise to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face.
And rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.

May you live as long as you want,
And never want as long as you live.

Always remember to forget
The things that made you sad.
But never forget to remember
The things that made you glad.
Always remember to forget
The friends that proved untrue.
But never forget to remember
Those that have stuck by you.
Always remember to forget
The troubles that passed away.
But never forget to remember
The blessings that come each day.

May the saddest day of your future be no worse
Than the happiest day of your past.

May the roof above us never fall in.
And may the friends gathered below it never fall out.

May you have warm words on a cold evening,
A full moon on a dark night,
And the road downhill all the way to your door.

May there be a generation of children
On the children of your children.

May you live to be a hundred years,
With one extra year to repent!

May the Lord keep you in His hand
And never close His fist too tight.

May your neighbors respect you,
Trouble neglect you,
The angels protect you,
And heaven accept you.

May the Irish hills caress you.
May her lakes and rivers bless you.
May the luck of the Irish enfold you.
May the blessings of Saint Patrick behold you.

May your pockets be heavy and your heart be light,
May good luck pursue you each morning and night.

Walls for the wind,
And a roof for the rain,
And drinks beside the fire - Laughter to cheer you
And those you love near you,
And all that your heart may desire!

May God be with you and bless you,
May you see your children's children,
May you be poor in misfortune, rich in blessings.
May you know nothing but happiness
From this day forward.

May God grant you many years to live,
For sure He must be knowing
The earth has angels all too few
And heaven is overflowing.

May peace and plenty be the first
To lift the latch to your door,
And happiness be guided to your home
By the candle of Christmas.

May you always have work for your hands to do.
May your pockets hold always a coin or two.
May the sun shine bright on your windowpane.
May the rainbow be certain to follow each rain.
May the hand of a friend always be near you.
And may God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

today is BORING..

Okay I've been so bored today. NOTHING TO DO!!!! TV sucks and I am in a really lazy mood. I did a few projects this morning....... sorted a bag of random socks that I have, hung up clothes and organized Emily's closet, made potato salad and cleaned up the office. BUT I am just bored now and I don't know what to do. I should find something to do with Emily as she is probably bored too although right now she is watching TV. Which makes me feel like a bad mom. Does every Mom let their kids watch this much TV----- I personally know people that have their TV on constantly and I know we don't but I still know she is watching too much. I am always worrying---- Am I doing all I can for her? Did my Mom worry this much? Does everyone or is just me? Everyone who knows me, will tell ya----it's just me. Ha I occasionally just need to chill and think what is the worst thing that is going to happen..... years from now she will not remember that in the summer of 2007, I allowed her to watch too much TV. Atleast I hope not. God, that would suck!!! I am listening to KT Tunstall.... I LOVE THAT CD. Brian called earlier... sounds like he's having an enjoyable time although he said he was on like a 5 hour shuttle ride from the airport... which he said SUCKED. But when I talked to him last he was trying to find something to eat.... good luck... worried alittle about him finding food he will enjoy there. He is a little picky. Emily is doing good, kids are so resilent. She is acting fine( without Daddy being here-), which makes me glad but also like is that Normal? Again... worrying. I am constantly worrying. I need to CHILL. Seriously. Okay.. well since I haven't really said much of anything in this blog I guess I'll go and be bored in another room... Ha

Brian is up up and away.....

Brian is off to Ireland... he just left NJ and is up in the plane. I'm missing him already and I just said goodbye. I hope he has a wonderful time on his dream trip!!! I LOVE YOU BRIAN if you read my blog while u are gone. See ya in 2 weeks!!!

Hey All

Hello there, Okay it's been really busy and hectic here lately. Brian had to have blood work and a testicular ultrasound done and we had been waiting a week for the results--- VERY STRESSFUL!! We finally found out on Tuesday.... and it was really great news!!! NOTHING REALLY SERIOUS... NO CANCER!! Yeah... we were so releived and excited! Brian can now go on his Ireland trip and not have anything too serious to worry about, he still will have to have 2 hydroceles( a watery cyst on his testicles)taking care of.... ouch. But they aren't really harmful just annoying. We've also been getting Brian's packing done. He leaves on Friday for his dream vacation. I hope everything goes well on it. He said the weather report says rain for the first 5 days and that is soppose to be the sunny part of Ireland---- Oh well he'll still have fun. Hope you have fun, Brian... and miss me!! Anyway on to other stuff.... Yesterday,Emily and I went with our friends to see a local production of Disney's Mulan. It was performed all by kids, between the ages of 8-17 yrs old. It was ALOT of fun and Emily really enjoyed. The last time we were in DisneyWorld, we saw Beauty and the Beast and it was TOO much for Emily... this time she enjoyed all of it! We ( my BFF and I) are considering taking our girls to NYC and seeing a show but we wanted to make sure that we didn't spend over $100.00 on tickets for something Emily would HATE. SO it was nice to know that she was able to enjoy this show. We may go again next Thursday to see "Once upon a mattress" Anyway.. I better go. I'm working at my bookkeeping job today and I need to still take a shower and get ready. Hope u have a NICE day.....................................PEACE! Missy

I am thankful God...
For Emily
For Mom
For Brian
For Fernando
For Family
For Friends
For forgiving me
For forgiving them


I am hoping God....
For health
For happiness
For Healing
For Joy
For forgiveness
For love
For Action
For Strength


I am wondering God....
Why Pain
Why trouble
Why now
Why him
Why me
Why her
Why them
Why not


I am afriad God....
Not enough
Not doing
Not praying
Not worthy
Not feeling
Not being
Not seeing
Not showing

MAJOR STRESS!

I am feeling major stress tonight. Well first, it's like flippn' 95 degrees out and our air conditioner has decided NOT to work. SO JOY... what the F*CK!! Also, my husband is going to the doctors tomorrow and I'm worried about him and how it goes. He's been really really tired for a long time and everyone thought it was just his sleep apnea but then he got a CPAP machine and he was still tired.... so okay more test..... then he was diagnosed with Low testosterone and the medicine he was given for that didn't work and so now he has to see a specialist and I am just worried because I love him and I just want him to feel better and be fine. Also, my husband's Ireland trip is soon and he'll be gone and I'll miss him alot!! My sister is suppose to visit this week and now we have no air conditioning. I mean I know people LIVED without AIR CONDITIONING. But I DON'T CARE..... I'm HOT and IRRITABLE!! I'm so jealous of rich people who don't have to worry about anything materialistic . It's like okay we need this... no problem... money's in the bank. I mean I know that I am a lot better off then some and I do appreciate all that I have. But there is still that green eyed monster who wishes that it was easier. It's like 12:04 am and I should be asleep but I can't because I'm worried. So maybe I'll go eat a chocolate donut and think about all that we need to get done... oh yeah and our dog needs a license and the township sent us a " REMINDER" that it needs to be done or ELSE! Like a need another OR ELSE in my life. I'm sorry I know I'm whining and complaining and just downright in a pissy mood and I'm sorry. Life is hard---- and that really SUCKS sometimes.

WRONG TO HATE? OKAY I DISLIKE PREZ BUSH IMMENSELY

Okay.. I know that usually this blog is a lot of fluff.. I mean it's about my family so it's important to me. But I don't usually go too deep into serious issues like politics, and such. But I've been hearing all this talk about Keith Olberman's commentary on Bush. So I finally watched it... it's just incredible. He voiced so eliquotely what so many of us have been feeling. WOW... if you haven't seen it... please I beg you to watch it on youtube. It's remarkable. I usually can't talk to much or long about George Bush because well to be frank... I get really pissed off. I HATED when he got elected and I knew right away he would not be a good president. I was however one of those people that right after 9-11, gave him a little bit of rope. Considering what our country was going through.... we needed someone and I was willing atleast momentarily willing to follow our leader. Even if "HE" was the leader. Well it didn't last long and I regret the little bit of faith I had put into him at that time. He choked himself with that rope we all gave him at the time. When I think about all of our soldiers that have been killed, or disabled I am so very very sad! And the war just continues and more are dying then every before. So sad. I can't wait until 08' and we get a new president. I hope it's a democrat but I'll take anyone at this point. ANYONE as long as his name isn't BUSH!!

Happy 4th of JULY!!!!!

Happy 4th of July Peeps!!! Okay I don't actually have peeps but I wanna be cool like that!! Ha!! This morning when we woke up we had no plans for the 4th.....kinda sad! But then my equally bored slightly more ambitious Aunt Barbara invited us over for a BBQ-- okay maybe I have peeps but they are family peeps-I'm not sure they count. So that was at 10:54am and I decided to make potato salad... but we are suppose to be there at 1 pm and I don't even have any of the stuff to make it. So my wonderful husband went to the store and got me potatoes, mayo, eggs and celery. Making potato salad takes a flippin' long time!! So at 1:20 we left to go... okay now we are on are way, with 5 pounds of potato salad and people probably are already eating and we have all this potato salad! But we call my aunt and no they haven't eaten. Good becuase that is A LOT of potato salad. Anyway, we had a really nice time at my aunt's.... family and food!! All you need for a fun BBQ!! Emily ofcourse was so happy and she played wiffle ball with her daddy, she performed a little show were she sang the "Wonder Pets" theme song..... cute stuff! Thank you Aunt Barbara... YOU ROCK!! Okay, well I'm gonna go and enjoy the rest of my 4th of July with my family! Happy 4th everyone! ..... Oh yeah, Emily hates fireworks so we are NOT doing that. Unless we want a screamin child!! No Thanks.

Side note: Emily made that American flag for a school project!!